I wish words could explain the madness of my soul, the hidden desperations, worries, fears, loves, desires, dreams, hidden in the cavities of my being. I try. I write. Words upon meaningless words, hoping that one day I may be able to contain some sort of essence of myself. But that is far from here, and until there, I'll write. I'll poor my bloody messages into words, record them, write them, I hope you hear them. But I will keep writing it all anyways, for myself, for my sanity, for my depravity, until the very end. (Source: vertere, via abeetlesblog)
Secretly, he’s a dancer
and secretly, she’s a song.
He clandestinely covers his
gamboling feet and she
supplies silent music
kept under wraps.
Her sympathetic melody,
mindful of his delicate steps,
is justly eclipsed by falsities.
She fears exposure,
she is unsure
of herself and anyone.
And the song is her,
rumbling from deep within
and to uncover it,
vulnerable and unprotected,
is her greatest fear.
And so the boy suppresses
his stirring, rythmic motions
and struggles for stillness
in silence.
My thoughts are so loud, I can’t hear them.
There are far too many, all trying to overpower the others,
but all so loud and domineering, that I can’t hear a single thing.
I can’t pluck out a single thought to think.
I can’t close in on one idea and hold it long enough
to turn into glorious words. Because I can’t catch one.
I can’t catch any. All my thoughts,
are too big for my hands,
too loud for my head,
too painful for my heart.
I give up, thoughts.
You win.